The Ramblings of Daily Life

Growing up in the Information age, discovering my newfound sexuality, and going through all of the normal craziness that most teenagers do, I spent many years trying to project myself outwardly as "someone".   The problem was, this was hardly a genuine projection.   It was essentially a mask I wore for external validation, a façade to please others in spite of myself.   Most of my childhood, I was extremely introverted, and I ate whatever I wanted.   Food, social media, and computer games were drugs I used to deal with my feelings of loneliness or dejection.   I also didn't care much about what I looked like.   Once I started putting a little more energy into what I was eating, I was able to lose some weight.   To no surprise, some people started to pay more attention to me.     In college, I used to eat a s'mores pop-tart and drink coffee every morning.   I fell in love with the selfie and stopped using my DSLR.   Also...

In 2016, during my normal discovery playlist on Spotify, I heard a bop I couldn’t get out of my head.  No, it wasn’t Shura, or Madonna, or Avril, it was a wonderful compound.  Personal, understated and addictive. What you've done to me Well I've seen many a friend be silenced Thinking nobody would believe them Well baby you've got another thing coming You can try to make me stop, call it delusion But every time I don't shut up, it's revolution; MUNA – Loudspeaker I think we’ve all been here.   One of those moments where you are you feeling yourself and you can’t let it go. When someone doesn’t love you the way a partner should and therefore, stunts your expression.   " I am a loudspeaker".   It was a recipe for love immediately.   An 80’s electro indie – pop band comprised of three queer girls.   The first EP was magical.   If I thought it was a fluke, I was quickly proved wrong.   “Winterbreak" is nothing if not magical. ...